I’m just like her..

shirleychen:

Boys are confusing. They never want to express or talk about their feelings.

tedeezy:

Is one of the hardest things to do. Cause it’s you fighting your own feelings. Your mind wants to stop thinking about that person, stop wondering about how that person is doing & stop remembering about what they had together because its too painful. But your heart is still attached to that person, it’s still in tune with that person & it still has all those feelings you gained over time that’s just too good to let go of.

I’m having a hard time sleeping. Way too many thoughts going on in my head. So I thought hey maybe if I type them out I’ll be able to sleep. So here it is…

• part of the reason I can’t sleep is I’m extremely pissed. The fact that she chose him over my childhood friend. Funny cause I’m close friends with her new boyfriend and Yeah I should be happy for him but I’m not. She led my other friend on to only stick him in the friend zone. He is honestly one of the kindest and caring people I know. He’d do anything you asked him to cause he’s just that nice. He really liked her and knowing that he’s probably hurting right now kills me. Cause I can’t do anything about it. Dammit.

• I’m gonna die alone. I have to stop watching these chick flicks.

• I miss my mom.

• I’ll never be good enough for anyone. I mean look at me… Who would fall for a girl like me. No one. I’ve been trying so hard to change who I am for other people i.. I just can’t do it anymore. I can’t stand who I am I just wanna be someone else.

• I don’t want to go to school tomorrow. I’ll just end up freaking out on people. Especial the new couple. Oh god.

• what if I don’t wake up early enough to take my shower.. Omg. I need to sleep.

• I’m just gonna.. Go cry now.. Goodnight.

Everything I do you have to do better. The clothes I buy, you buy and wear it 10 times better. Why do you do this to me? Part of the reason I hate myself so much is because of you. Because of you I feel like I’m never good enough. I hope you know that.. I hope you know that you’re the reason I hate myself. 

I haven’t been on here for a while. The reason being my life has gotten better actually… crap I probably just jinxed that. I actually have another blog that I spend most of my time on. This ones where I just rant on and on about my problems and lately.. I just haven’t had any.